I was taken away from my birth family at a very young age, but I was old enough to understand that I wasn't ever going back. I was molested raped and abused in so many ways that fear was all I ever knew. I was afraid to wake up in the morning and to go to sleep at night, I was afraid to go to school and even more afraid to go home at night. I was afraid of summer and christmas vacations because thats when the abuse at home was the worst. I was afraid to eat because I was always told I was fat and ugly, I was afraid to tell anyone because I was afraid they wouldn't believe me. I was in a constant state of fear with very little reprieve.